We will fold and freeze together

kombucha_gar @ 2009-12-21T13:25:00

2009-12-21T13:25:07Z

ARBEIT MACHT FREI

Snow

2009-12-17T21:06:09Z

Today it snowed. i dont know if i fucking myself over or did the write thing.
I want to run away.

I need human heat.

2009-12-14T21:11:10Z

"For gods sake gareth play it cool"

i dont know how i took that, how i take that. past present. i need to break this cycle somehow.

kombucha_gar @ 2009-12-07T12:15:00

2009-12-07T12:15:46Z

Post scrit.
oh livejournal. you are a brittle friend. you are the cause of many an entry and i Love / Hate you for it.

A Long over due entry.

2009-12-07T12:05:08Z

SO with university we got to go to New York. Educational trip obviously.
We went Tuesday the 10th to Monday the 17th of November OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT.
Official things we did:
We met Kimberley Buttler, editorial Photographer.
Met, Fred Cray, Fine art photographer (WITH LOADS OF CATS) he is sponsored by the Guggenheim.!!
Beatrice Reindhart documentary photographer.
And we went to NYU to the Tisch institute for the arts.
At tisch only 4 people out of our whole year got to show their work to the lecturers photographers and 4th year graduate students. I WAS CHOSEN AS ONE OF THEM FOR MY SDA1 work. AWESOME.
We also walked round, Soho, Nolita, Noho, China town, Chelsea, Meatpacking, Art District. IT WAS AMAZING.
I did so much walking.
coney Island was such a highlight as well as Ice skating in Central Park.
It was so much fun and non stop. Everything is a blurr now I should of done this entry sooner.
Here are some photo's we well didnt have enough time to do everything but i Want to go back.
maybe live out there for a couple of months after my degree. Who knows Im confident in myself and my work that the world is my oyster. How pretentious but hey someones gotta believe it.

kombucha_gar @ 2009-12-02T21:11:00

2009-12-02T21:11:12Z

take a deep breath.
Pick up the courage and go.

kombucha_gar @ 2009-12-02T14:59:00

2009-12-02T14:59:32Z

john lewis adverts are some good.
I like this song.

You're the shit and I'm knee deep in it.

2009-11-30T05:13:50Z

I need company I need human heat
I need human heat

Lets pretend I'm attractive and then
You won't mind, you can twist for a while
It's the night, I can be who you like
And I'll quietly leave before it gets light

I think im in love, with this band.
Love , psychically? well at the moment Im just ripping myself apart.

kombucha_gar @ 2009-11-28T19:33:00

2009-11-28T19:33:49Z

My hole, I'll get my hole, I'll get my hole
Get my hole, get my hole and I'll find out more.
It's a choo-choo train, a rocket launch
If we have a hormone race
i'm bound to finish first.

Can you see in the dark?
Can you see the look on your face?
The flashing white light's been turned off,
You don't know know who's in your bed.

It takes more than fucking someone you don't know to keep warm.
Do you really think that for a house-beat you'll find your love in a hole?

Oh, you won't find love in a,
Won't find love in a hole.
It takes more than fucking someone to keep yourself warm.

I'm drunk, I'm drunk
And you're probably on pills
If we've both got the same diseases
It's irrelevant girl
And the room fills with steam
Oh, evaporates disappears
My point of entry is the same way
That I leave

Can you see in the dark?
Can you see the look on your face?
The flashing white light's been turned off
You don't know know who's in your bed.

It takes more than fucking someone you don't know to keep warm.
Do you really think that for a house-beat you'll find your love in a hole?

But, you won't find love in a, won't find love in a hole.
It takes more than fucking someone to keep yourself warm.

You won't find love in a, won't find love in a hole.
It takes more than fucking someone to keep yourself-
SEE in the dark!
Can you see the look in your face?
The flashing white light's been turned off
You don't know know who's in your bed.

It takes more than fucking someone you don't know
to keep warm
Do you really think that for a house-beat you'll find your love in a hole?

kombucha_gar @ 2009-11-26T00:52:00

2009-11-26T00:52:18Z

Photography is full on at the moment.
I still havent scanned all my negs from NY yet :( ill do an entry on NY when i have!
Ive been building a set with a group of photographers for a set project in uni at the moment that takes up most of my time.
i have two days left.
Progress so far:

Flex. Falmouth Newspaper extract.

2009-11-02T00:18:08Z

"I am here, I guess so. I think that's what this work is about. Exploring the ideas that I don't just exist in this place physically but in life in general. My obsession with the body plays through from a self portraiture objective to an impersonal form that lacks identity. I would say my work reflects how I deal with life with who I am and want to be. My life wouldn't be one theme or motif. I used traditional film just to reaffirm that I existed, I can hold evidence to a moment in time. I want to hold onto something so intangible. Place your hand in mine, I guess I want to live."

kombucha_gar @ 2009-11-01T23:43:00

2009-11-01T23:44:46Z

Halloween was a good night out.
i hope i remember more.

kombucha_gar @ 2009-10-29T15:16:00

2009-10-29T15:17:30Z

I got another tattoo.

slow hands.

2009-10-26T17:23:24Z

http://www.flickr.com/photos/one_evening1945/

Its a vicious cycle, from feeling low to feeling ostracised.
To knowing I am loved everyone but lack that intimacy with one.
To not having that special someone.
To being alone.
to feeling low.

Sweet Disposition.

2009-10-17T12:35:47Z

Second year of University. First House I've lived in without family. Shared accommodation. Me and 4 other friends have a nice semi detached house in Cornwall. I go to Falmouth Uni.
I like what ive done with my room. Its small, single, downstairs & by the kitchen, but boasts a great view of the garden and Amazing for sunsets. I love it.

tiktok.

2009-10-16T14:41:01Z

Holga 120N
Fujifilm - 120 PRO s & Ilford HP5

Blue Moon

2009-10-13T16:32:54Z

Underpinning photography work to relevant themes ideas and research is dull.
Holga 120N - Fuji PRO 120
Diana F+ - Fuji film Velvia 50

Famz

2009-10-10T22:29:39Z

I need to stop telling people about my mum and her round the world trip.
Its im just THAT jealous.

I love famz.
but you knew that.

Colour Co-ordinated Family.
A Symphony of Blue.

kombucha_gar @ 2009-09-28T05:24:00

2009-09-28T04:25:32Z

...a man in a tight t-shirt just sat down and tried to show me with his eyes that he loved me for being so honest so fast and so late. i was going to explain to him that it wasn’t a performance, but a year ago it would have been, so i just let it go. Christ im alone.

It's judgement day and I'm not prepared

2009-09-27T13:55:10Z

I guess I have lost any zest for this situation right now. I hate being responsible, bills rent food degrees friends boys can all fuck off. Im going to be reckless.
Heres my house. and some other photos. Ish.

My Room is the large window downstairs.

Push the Button, Not your Luck.

James and Maisie look after our itineraries.

Walking in fear of Death eaters.

was she asking for it

2009-09-12T15:14:08Z

www.100abandonedhouses.com

im addicted to these house's. i need to write a proper entry. But im far too stressed. soon.

I was a quick wet boy

2009-08-26T13:21:30Z

I have spent the day crying.
I am soft for crying over a house and a city. My Mother keeps telling me. Think onwards and upwards.
But i'll miss you Liverpool.
Ill miss this house. The memories. I moved here when I was 11. Ill miss my room, the times Ive had in it.
the 7th of may 2006.
14th of december 2007. in particular.
Ill miss the city. the people the memories. The People who are moving have signed the contract for 3 years.
Uhh.
Hello World. Embrace me. im too upset to embrace you.

Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.

2009-08-23T20:50:35Z

Today was perhaps the best day of summer.
Here I go again. Eggs in once basket.
The Pokemon event lasted all of 10 minutes. I got the special Lv. 100 Regigigas. They didnt give out Darkrai.
LAME.
But the Date. THE DATE.
The guy, we will call him the guy as im not sure what to call him yet, his name is Francesco Paris. He is excellent. A gentleman, interesting, funny cute and just swept me off my feet. I mean he travelled all the way up from London for one day. We walked round liverpool, to the docks and round the Pier. Then we walked round cathedrals and through parks. We walked in the sun, the overcast, the rain. we laughed, he held my hand in the rain in the park.
He looks like Jack from Lost. see ref Here.
He has travelled. He used to travel in his childhood with his parents. He has the best accent. He knows the right words to say.
Officially smitten on a first date.
"FOR GODS SAKE GARETH PLAY IT COOL"

Consequently im being a teenage girl and cant stop listening to Love song by Taylor Swift.
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Pkmn Event

2009-08-23T08:44:57Z

Day2. day 1 was cancelled.
Why do I do this to myself. My 6th Pokemon Event. God almighty I'm 1 a loner. 2 a geek.
Oh Violet from thursdays Private Practice I sympathise with you.
I have a date today.
With a 29 year old from london. Weird. He travels alot. HE'S BEEN TO LAMU. exciting.
I am incredibly nervous.

one day

2009-08-18T22:16:28Z

One Day Ill find the motivation to write a proper journal when I have actually done something.
It seems I can only write a journal when im venting.
Family holiday in the Lakes.
I love family.